Freeing myself from a 39-year imprisoned mind

I lived the first 39 years of my life in prison.

Not the prison with bars and guards, but rather a prison of my own mind. There was just something blocking me from the freedom of an unencumbered life.

Since I was 30 years old, I tried everything from exercise to yoga, meditation to various other esoteric therapies. Things improved but somehow I couldn’t break free. I wondered if I ever would.


After learning about Marisa Peer’s RTT therapy last summer at the MindValley conference in Tallinn, Estonia, I decided to have a look whether or not someone was practicing this technique in Zurich. Thankfully I found and met with Astuti on April 9, 2019.

I am now writing this on May 21, 2019, and I cannot begin to tell you the impact our session has had on my life. I tried everything before, and although I am sure those efforts contributed to the triumphant success of the hypnosis therapy, the breakthrough that occurred on April 9th was truly remarkable.

Astuti expertly and compassionately guided me through some difficult memories from my childhood and allowed me to relive them in order to construct a new internal narrative. This new narrative is based on understanding and love, a brilliant change from the anger and fear of the past.


Everyone who knows me is absolutely floored at the changes. My energy is intense and pristine, physical weight is just falling off of me and I am so much more present. I was always an empathetic and kind person, but my sincerity is now palpable and I am constantly noticing ways to be of service to others. Whether a smile, simple helping hand or significant offer of support…I look at myself now as a karmic warrior seeking to spread love wherever possible.

My life is now based on gratitude and appreciation. The anxiety and stress has gone away, and I can now look at the difficult periods of my past life with happiness because the road ended here. I have no regrets and I see life now as a giant karmic jigsaw puzzle. No more tunnel vision about my own deficiencies or struggles, but rather a wide open mosaic of awareness and love. And where love is not yet present, I see opportunity for it to flood in and heal.


I look back at all of the people who were there for me in my life and I am just overwhelmed at the kindness in this world. I cannot even relate to my life prior to April 9th, it’s truly like another lifetime. It’s as if Astuti helped me wipe slate clean and I am, at 39, able to start all over again.

The most important lesson I learned was to never give up. If I had, I would have never met Astuti and I would not have tasted this new reality. There are many ways to heal yourself and others, hypnosis being one of them. But, whatever you try, you have to commit to it. Commit to being one with love in this world and it can happen for you. And if you commit, you will one day run into someone like Astuti who can help you break through to the other side.


I’d like to share a quote from Terrence McKenna which sums up my thoughts on my journey:
“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it’s a feather bed.” Terrence McKenna


Adam Pierce

Zurich, Switzerland