Freeing myself from a 39-year imprisoned mind

I lived the first 39 years of my life in prison.

Not the prison with bars and guards, but rather a prison of my own mind. There was just something blocking me from the freedom of an unencumbered life.

Since I was 30 years old, I tried everything from exercise to yoga, meditation to various other esoteric therapies. Things improved but somehow I couldn’t break free. I wondered if I ever would.


After learning about Marisa Peer’s RTT therapy last summer at the MindValley conference in Tallinn, Estonia, I decided to have a look whether or not someone was practicing this technique in Zurich. Thankfully I found and met with Astuti on April 9, 2019.

I am now writing this on May 21, 2019, and I cannot begin to tell you the impact our session has had on my life. I tried everything before, and although I am sure those efforts contributed to the triumphant success of the hypnosis therapy, the breakthrough that occurred on April 9th was truly remarkable.

Astuti expertly and compassionately guided me through some difficult memories from my childhood and allowed me to relive them in order to construct a new internal narrative. This new narrative is based on understanding and love, a brilliant change from the anger and fear of the past.


Everyone who knows me is absolutely floored at the changes. My energy is intense and pristine, physical weight is just falling off of me and I am so much more present. I was always an empathetic and kind person, but my sincerity is now palpable and I am constantly noticing ways to be of service to others. Whether a smile, simple helping hand or significant offer of support…I look at myself now as a karmic warrior seeking to spread love wherever possible.

My life is now based on gratitude and appreciation. The anxiety and stress has gone away, and I can now look at the difficult periods of my past life with happiness because the road ended here. I have no regrets and I see life now as a giant karmic jigsaw puzzle. No more tunnel vision about my own deficiencies or struggles, but rather a wide open mosaic of awareness and love. And where love is not yet present, I see opportunity for it to flood in and heal.


I look back at all of the people who were there for me in my life and I am just overwhelmed at the kindness in this world. I cannot even relate to my life prior to April 9th, it’s truly like another lifetime. It’s as if Astuti helped me wipe slate clean and I am, at 39, able to start all over again.

The most important lesson I learned was to never give up. If I had, I would have never met Astuti and I would not have tasted this new reality. There are many ways to heal yourself and others, hypnosis being one of them. But, whatever you try, you have to commit to it. Commit to being one with love in this world and it can happen for you. And if you commit, you will one day run into someone like Astuti who can help you break through to the other side.


I’d like to share a quote from Terrence McKenna which sums up my thoughts on my journey:
“Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it’s a feather bed.” Terrence McKenna


Adam Pierce

Zurich, Switzerland

Uplift! A journey from burnout to inner peace

“Whatever you choose to do in life,

make sure that you’re also doing it to help others”.


I was 16 when my late father said this to me. With such an intense gaze, he said these words.


I heard him, loud and clear. I remember it like it was yesterday. He didn’t have to say it often. I experienced him being consistent with this all throughout his life – dedicating his life to science to improve lives. He also followed his passion to develop young scientists in any way that he could.
His words have been staying in and with me since.
I experienced a burn out at the end of 2008. Not many people knew in-depth the ins and outs of it – what happened to me; what impact it had on my life; and how I came out from it. Only a handful of people; after I managed to move forward from its worst point.
This experience changed everything in my life, progressively. If my life then was a house, that house collapsed to the ground.
Since then, I’ve been rebuilding my “new house”, one layer at a time, and one area at a time. Carefully, with a lot of support.
It has been a journey filled with realisations, decisions, and forgiveness.
When the opportunity to write and share my story showed up in February this year through “Ignite Your life for Women” book, I jumped in full heartedly.


The book consists of real life stories about how 35 women moved forward after facing life crises, such as grave illnesses, divorces, separation, death, burnout, financial ruins, grieve, career dip, fear of aging etc when one has to start over from the ground up.

“It’s time”, I said to myself. I felt called and ready to share my story about the burnout.
I had only one intention: to offer what I’ve learnt about how to rise from the ashes, like a phoenix, and start to thrive again in a different way. It was about bringing my learnings to be of use for others.
What excited me more was that the proceeds from this book’s sale are going into charities that empower women. Perfect!




“Papa, this is for you”.

I closed my eyes, sent my prayer and pressed “send”. My application email to be one of the authors in this book made its way. The rest was history.


Burn out, like divorce, death, illnesses, etc. are one of the mini-deaths that can happen to anyone. Overwhelming and lonely often describe the emotions that come with it.  That was also how I felt.

Not anymore now. It doesn’t need to be.

Get this book (through this link, you can download it in kindle for free until May 20th 2019), read my story “Uplift! A journey from burnout to inner peace”, read other stories that call you in this book, and let these reflections accompany your journey. Write a review, share your thoughts on what you feel about it. Afterwards, share this book with others. Regardless of the title, the content in this book is helpful for all.

No, you’re not alone. You don’t have to be. And YES, you can rise.


In loving memory of my beloved Dad, Dr. Suwarto Martosudirjo, the man who showed me how to be a loving support for others.


Love and light,

Watch out!

Watch out for what you tell yourself. 
Choose carefully the kind of message you tell yourself.


#iamenough #upliftmylifetoday


You’re the closest person to your subconscious mind, one that listens to you without fail.
It is your most powerful and loyal ally and it trusts you 100 percent. Whatever you say to it repetitively over a period of time becomes its truth. Its truth becomes your reality.


Catch yourself and choose wisely what to say over and over again to your subconscious mind. Repetitive thoughts are beliefs.

And, remember, beliefs are the seeds of life. They grow to become gardens.
Plant uplifting beliefs for your life’s garden, blossoming with inner peace, contentment and a sense of purpose.


Move away from being a Procrastinator or an Achievement Addicts and choose to show up as an Uplifted Go-Getter.

Your journey to unleash your potential and to deliver the kind of impact that you want is meant to be as joyful as achieving your goals.


So, here is an invitation for you:
Find me at
* When you are ready to shift your limiting beliefs into uplifting ones;
* When you are ready to answer the calling to be an Uplifted Go-Getter



What Procrastinators and Achievement Addicts have in common

What do Procrastinators and Achievement Addicts have in common?


#upliftmylifetoday #iamenough


They’re not consistently feeling energized or present or confident as they show up in their lives: being who they are and doing what they’re doing. Instead, often they feel overwhelmed; many times scattered and uptight.

They feel somehow “constipated” in their efforts to unleash the potential they know they have within.

In different areas of their lives, one can be a procrastinator or an achievement addict.

Their behaviours are driven by the belief that “they are not enough as they are.” Enough for what? Enough to be accepted, acknowledged, and loved.

Does this speak to you?

If there is only one thing you can do to change this is to TRANSFORM your BELIEFS. As you do so, your subconscious mind works for what you desire, not against it.

Beliefs are the seeds of life. They grow to become gardens. Plant uplifting beliefs for your life’s garden, blossoming with inner peace, contentment, and a sense of purpose.