I was born into a culture that valued duty, achievement, and self-sacrifice. From a young age, I learned that love and acceptance were earned through hard work, responsibility, and meeting the expectations of others. As the eldest child, I carried the weight of these unspoken rules, always striving to be dependable, accomplished, and worthy.
Yet, even in my earliest memories, I felt different. I saw the world through a different lens—questioning, feeling deeply, and sensing things beyond what was spoken. Though surrounded by family and community, I often felt like I didn’t fully belong.
Living in five different countries added another layer to my life. Each place held a mirror to different aspects of myself, exposing both the unshakable parts of my authentic self and the ones shaped by external expectations. I learned to adapt, to see the world through diverse perspectives, and to embrace the beauty of change. Yet, no matter where I went, the same internal patterns followed me—until I chose to break free from them, not by changing my environment, but by transforming within.
For years, I lived in a cycle of achievement, responsibility, and self-sacrifice. On the outside, I had everything—a successful career, recognition, and a life that looked accomplished. But deep within, I felt exhausted, disconnected, and trapped in a pattern that was slowly depleting my soul.
Something inside me whispered that there was more to life than constantly taking care of others. But I didn’t know how to break free. The pressure to hold everything together—to be strong, reliable, and accomplished—was overwhelming.
Beneath it all, I carried unprocessed wounds, inherited burdens, and subconscious beliefs passed down through generations that kept me stuck. Burnout at the end of 2008 was the start of my journey of liberation.
Watch my journey to rise from burnout.
My journey of healing and transformation wasn’t about becoming someone new—it was about peeling away the layers of conditioning that weren’t truly mine. It was about unlearning, feeling, and rediscovering my own truth. It was about embodying my authentic self.
Through subconscious reprogramming, emotional healing, and deep inner work, I freed myself from the patterns that had ruled my life for so long.
I no longer live for external validation. I no longer sacrifice my well-being to carry things that aren’t mine. I no longer carry guilt for prioritizing myself. I also learnt that a good intention to help others can be disempowering others when it is over done.
Now, I guide and catalyse others through their own journey of liberation—helping them break free from inherited trauma, subconscious limitations, and emotional exhaustion.
I believe that true transformation is about coming home to your authentic self—releasing what isn’t yours and stepping into a life of joy, fulfillment, and deep authenticity.
If you feel trapped in cycles of over-responsibility, self-sacrifice, guilt, or burnout, know this: You are not alone, and you don’t have to carry this forever.
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Astuti