“My body is warm again now”.

My client shared this with me as I asked her to close her eyes and say: “I am a trailblazer”.

Our soul lands in our body when truth is spoken.
It roots deeper in our body when an aligned action is taken.
This was one of those moments.

I’ve been supporting my beautiful client for a number of years now to reclaim and live her authentic self.
It started from burnout recovery some years back and she has gone through cycles of coming home courageously and taking bold actions to stay in alignment with her inner world.

A few months ago, some important things in her life ended. Such experiences always bring hidden gifts packaged in challenges.

Following this set of endings, she felt so much grief, disconnection, lethargy and exhaustion.
She met these gracefully, applying what she has learnt over the years to move through them.

Until one day she felt she needed support.
She could not stop the resistance to do even the simplest things.
A feeling of not being in her body – “It feels empty” – and her fear of being in the liminal space: “I can’t connect to my old self but I am not sure what I am becoming either”.

As we sat together in her session, I sensed a truth needed to be spoken.
I asked her to say: “I am a trailblazer”.

She did and her body responded instantly and clearly.
Her soul started to land back in her body. Her body was filling up again, and warmth entered.

She was shocked. “I heard this word before many times but did not feel connected to it”. As I helped her understand how holding this frequency shows up in one’s life, she confirmed many of them as her own experiences since she was a child.
Then grief rose up… and now we knew why.

“Go ahead, it is okay to say it!”
“F*******k”…

There was no other appropriate word for what came through in this moment.

It was the beginning of a realisation that changes how she sees her life from then on and consequently will change the way she connects with herself and life.
This was one of the most important “clicks“ she had in her life as this is so foundational.

“I need time to let this land”.
This is exactly what she has been doing since – letting this truth take its natural time to land and root in her body, because it changes everything. There is no deadline, just enough space and time.

A few days after, I received a voice memo with a wonderful update.
She has been more active in doing things she really enjoys. She is also still meeting the grief but with a different tone this time.

This reaction is not a surprising one to witness.
Many people who truly hold this frequency in their body do not claim to be one.

I did not either… until I started to understand myself at the depth that has been unfolding over the last six years.

I did not know that trailblazer is a soul design. A frequency.
And yes, I am a trailblazer by soul design.

The trailblazer as a role and the trailblazer as a soul design (these are not the same thing)

The most common understanding of trailblazer is of it as a role, function, or ambition.
It is usually attached to bold entrepreneurs, visible leaders, people who consciously choose to disrupt.
It is about what they do. It is externally visible, often celebrated, and consciously chosen.

The trailblazer as a soul design is different.
It is not about what they do. It is not about visibility, disruption, or a conscious choice to lead.
It is about what they are and how their soul moves through life.

The trailblazer soul carries a frequency they were born with.
It was not developed through ambition or cultivated through practice.

It was already there, in the child who felt things others didn’t feel, who knew things before the evidence existed, who sensed a truth in their body while no one else around them could see or feel it, who was surrounded by many people but did not feel met fully by others.

Underneath the sensitivity and the inner knowing, this soul carries something even deeper : “A living memory” of a truer way of being, of loving, of building, of relating, of connecting that feels true and natural to them than the current world allows, permits, respects, supports, incentivies, rewards, or protects.

The soul of trailblazer frequency brings with it a blueprint for a love-rooted way of living that is older than how the world works generally today. It is what they carry forward.

These souls are not here to impose or preach this remembrance.
They are here to embody the love-rooted blueprint in their own unique life that it offers a remembrance and “permission” for others to live what their soul carries.

This trailblazer soul was designed “to go first”, to walk where internal maps don’t yet exist. They certainly are not meant to fit in.
They are often meant to feel what is coming before “it” arrives. Like a weather forecaster 😄

The trailblazer souls are here to outgrow what is not aligned. This is not synonymous with fighting what is not aligned.

They may outgrow the existing systems, the structures, the inherited and absorbed ways of working, relating and measuring worth that were built on fear, performance, scarcity, and separation.

These are not rebelled against. There is no fighting against, perse.
They are to be outgrown. Naturally. Inevitably.
The way a tree outgrows a pot that was never the right size.

This soul does not choose to be a trailblazer the way someone chooses a career path.
The frequency is simply what they are. They are born it.

The trail that forms behind them is a natural consequence of living authentically, not an obligation to fulfil, not a performance of pioneering.

The way this frequency is lived looks different for every soul who carries it.

Some move through visible leadership: in organisations, communities, movements, etc.
Some are through building – literal building, platform, concepts, way of life, anything.

Some work in solitary: writing, holding space, planting, attending animals, working with nature, anything.
They exist in a way that shifts what is possible around them.

Some are raising children, tending relationships, recoding family lines from the inside.

There is no hierarchy between these expressions.
All of them are the same frequency, living itself through different forms.

Most people who carry this frequency do not recognise themselves consciously in the word

Let me share some of what this soul may recognise in themselves (there are many more than these):

• They feel perpetually ahead. They see what others don’t, often told “you are ahead of your time” and have felt the depth of loneliness that comes with being “ahead”.
• They have a sense of something they are here to do as a pressure from inside. A pull. A persistent feeling that life as it is currently defined or structured does not fully contain them. That something is incoherent, off, or does not feel right. That there is another way.
• They are the ones who have spent years making themselves smaller, dimmer, edited, or silent so the people around them could be comfortable.
• They learned early that being fully visible creates friction.
• They carry a knowing they have been dismissed for, gaslit around, called too much or too sensitive or too certain about.
• They have a lingering exhaustion of knowing many things before others catch up.
• They have the grief of naturally choosing path that is more “difficult”. The grief of seeing something so clearly in a space that is not yet ready to see with them.
• They experience the exhaustion of numbing parts of themselves so they can live with the fact that others can only meet them partially .
• They also have the suppressed resentment from convincing themselves that what is available must be enough when it is truthfully not.
• Quietly, they carry the deep self-judgment, guilt, regret and resentment of “I did this to myself”; “It is my fault”; “Maybe I am a mistake”. These are the harshest of them all because they silently perpertrate themselves for what they are.

They carry all of this without understanding why they experience what they do in silence; wishing at times that life could be much simpler.

“Why can’t I make my life simpler and easier?”.

My invitation for you

As you read this, please pay attention to what stirs in you.
Maybe you feel “Ah, this is me” right away.
Maybe not.
Maybe you even resist what you read.

My invitation is simple.

Read what I share here and notice what happens in your body.
Let your heart and your body be the main receivers, not your mind.
Pay attention to whether something in you recognises itself: a warmth, a settling, a breath of relief.

Perhaps grief will rise.
When a truth this fundamental begins to land in your body, it doesn’t only liberate. It also brings into the surface everything that was lived in its absence.

Both are the frequency speaking.

If something in you is stirring, even so subtly, let it be.
It is a seed of remembrance being planted. It may take its time to fully land in your body.

For my client, she had heard the word many times before. It landed that morning in the session because her body was ready to receive it as truth.

For me, it was in my forties when I came to terms with the fact I had been carrying the trailblazer frequency my whole life. I finally could embrace it as my soul design and to surrender to it while meeting the grief.

There is no need to rush.

When this truth lands in your body, even partially, it begins to change things in you.

It offers a perspective that shifts what you allow yourself to be – to stop apologising for being you, to stop waiting for permission to unfold you, to stop talking yourself out of it.
It is the beginning of your home coming.

This frequency has always been there. It will still be there when you are ready.

An audio transmission to accompany you

If you feel something as you read this, I have a companion for you.

The Tender Truth of Living the Trailblazer Frequency is an audio transmission that speaks directly to your nervous system, letting go of the vigilance that builds when you have spent years moving first, in spaces that were not always ready for you.

My field will hold you as you bypass the mind and anchor safety directly into your body.

After receiving it, you may notice a softening of tension in your body, an emotional steadiness, a relief from the pressure of explaining yourself to others, and a sense that you are not alone anymore.

On Spotify: The Tender Truth of Living The Trailblazer Frequency

On Insight Timer: The Tender Truth of Living The Trailblazer Frequency

You can return to it as often as you need.

Let the trailblazer frequency take you back home to yourself.

In the coming weeks, I will be sharing more from what I experienced and what I witnessed in my clients about what it means to live this frequency – the wounds it carries, the wholeness it is returning to, and what the journey of coming home may actually look like.

Stay connected.

With love,

Astuti

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Today marked my twenty-five-year anniversary of living in Zurich, Switzerland.
When people find out I live in Switzerland, they often say, “You are so lucky”.

I understand why.
Switzerland is stunning. It is safe. It is organised and run in a way that very few places on earth are. I do not take any of it for granted.

Yet luck is not how I got here, and it is not what has kept me here for twenty-five years.
This quarter of a century was never just about rooting in a place. It was also about rooting in myself.

In 2001, I graduated from university in Indonesia.
As I prepared my next step, I made a prayer to the universe. I asked, quite specifically, for a place with clean air and clean water.
A place where a single woman could live feeling safe, day and night.
A place where I could work for an international company that took its people seriously and invested real resources in them.

Yet the deeper reason why I asked this was that I needed a place where I could hear myself, my inner voice.
A space where being different would not feel like a weight, or at times like a punishment.
A container for my life where I would have the physical and energetic space to get to know the real me.

A couple of years prior to this prayer, I lived in Rotterdam, the Netherlands, working with an international group of young people called AIESEC International.

Being in that kind of environment, I was naturally reflecting often about who I was and how I interacted with people.

I realised that while I had moments when I was outgoing with others, I found it difficult to keep my heart consistently open, to really let people in, to let people experience the true depth that I already carried. I did it so selectively. There was more to me that I let them experience.

I listened and met others more often than I let others meet me. There was a lot of internal processing before I truly opened myself up to them.

Sitting deeper with this, I realised that I did not actually feel safe being who I was. I had the feeling that very few would truly understand me, and that it was better not to show myself fully.

It was clear to me that my real issue was not the other person, but my relationship with myself.
I wanted to love myself more, and for that, I needed to face the questions: “Who am I, truthfully? What makes it so difficult to love myself?”

I knew there was a lot to unpack there.
I did not know how I would do it or how long it would take. Now I know it is a lifelong journey.

Despite not knowing the how or the how long, I knew for certain that I needed a specific kind of place to do so, and Indonesia was not that place.

Indonesia was where I grew up and where my family lived.

I loved Indonesia, but I often felt restricted. It was a place that carried many obligations, expectations, and rules for me. I did not have a consistently strong enough backbone to say no to many of them then. In addition to that, culturally, personal privacy and boundaries were not always respected.
This was one of my struggles growing up. I felt I often hit invisible walls around me.

While I loved my family deeply, I knew Indonesia was not the right place to return to after Rotterdam for what I needed and wanted.
I did not yet know where the right place was.

I asked myself whether I was running away from responsibility by not returning to Indonesia.
At the time, part of me felt the guilt.
Having said that, the inner pressure to get to know the real me was very strong, a now-or-never kind of feeling.
In the end, I found a middle ground that was acceptable to me at the time: to live in my own separate yet safe space, while still showing up from there for my family. It was a comforting enough choice for me.

I did not know the answer would be Switzerland. I had never lived here.

When an opportunity opened at UBS in Zurich and they flew me in for the final assessment, they asked me to stay a couple of extra days to simply feel whether I could be comfortable in the city.

I did, and I knew within those days that I felt safe.

My heart felt settled, even when everything was new and I had to build my life from scratch.

I often laugh when I remember that my plan was to stay for eighteen months and then move to London. Here I am, still here, twenty-five years later, even more settled.

The place where we root is our container.
It impacts our lives more profoundly than we often realise.

Some of us consciously choose where we live by selecting a specific place.
Some of us, like myself, decided on the experience we wanted to have and received guidance as to where that could be.
Some of us simply found ourselves, or were placed in a location, and stayed.

I believe that regardless of how we arrive where we are, there is a deeper reason why we are there.
We are meant to be there in this moment.

I only began to understand what Switzerland was for me in full much later.
Someone asked me recently whether Switzerland was a good place to live. I realised that the answer was neither short nor straightforward.

In the living of it, you do not always see the shape of what a place is doing for you. You simply feel it, or you feel the absence of it when it is gone.

Looking back now, I can say it clearly: Switzerland is my home and my threshold, both in one.

My home because I can breathe well here, feel nourished, and rest well.
Yes, of course, I feel at home in Switzerland also for its beauty, its structure, its wonderful stillness and quietness.
I feel there is spaciousness and groundedness in it. The small big cities (I love how big cities here are not big!), the lakes, the rivers, the hills, the mountains, the seasons, the air that is exactly what I asked for.
I also love that it is quiet in the evenings.

All of this gave me something I had wished for: a physical environment that was genuinely nourishing, where simply being outside and breathing is an act of restoration. I did not know how much I needed that until I had it.

Switzerland has also been the threshold through which my deeper self could walk, again and again, for me to come home to myself.
It held the conditions for the transmutation journey I had chosen to undertake.

Switzerland, in its neutrality, did not take sides in my inner wars. It simply witnessed them.
In that witnessing, over twenty-five years, I gradually reclaimed the self that I had hidden two and a half decades ago.

This reclamation was not always gentle.

I never knew there was such a thing as burnout until the UBS Social Counsellor diagnosed me with it at the end of 2008.

At that time, Switzerland was one of the few countries in the world that already recognised burnout as a real and serious condition, long before it became commonly understood elsewhere.
I do not believe it was a coincidence that I ended up here.

All of the support I needed to rise after the burnout, including therapy, energy work, subconscious reprogramming, and somatic healing, was available in Zurich.
I had never heard of these approaches before. They were not as mainstream as they are today, and yet I found them.

I worked with them in privacy, even when many people around me would not have understood why I did not pursue more conventional support such as a psychologist or a coach.

I felt safe choosing approaches and methods that resonated with me, without having to explain myself to anyone. Just resonance, and nothing else. Their respect for privacy is one of the things I truly appreciate here.

In Zurich, I felt I could move more freely to follow what my heart and body wanted, rather than what was considered normal. Somehow, I did not feel the weight of what is acceptable as much here. I felt welcome to be different.

The interesting thing is that my experience of Zurich and Switzerland may not be typical.
I have had conversations with others who found Zurich or Switzerland too rigid, too suffocating, too inflexible, too small, too boring.

I understand that.

These same qualities land differently depending on the person and their needs.

Switzerland has been a loving container, sturdy enough to hold me when I cracked myself open and rebuilt. Its energy is grounding and stable for me, to this day.

Now, your turn.

I share all of this not to romanticise my journey.

I know how painful it is to be somewhere that does not feel right, without knowing what to do about it, without knowing whether you can do anything about it, or whether you even have the right to want something different.

I also know that not all of us are in a position to choose.
Some are restricted by circumstances beyond their control.
Some are living in places they did not ask for and cannot yet leave.

May this reflection and invitation sit with you too.

Your container, even when you did not consciously choose it, is in a relationship with you.
Something is being offered there – a quality, a mirror, a community, a particular kind of stillness or friction – that your journey to become more fully yourself may need right now, even if you cannot yet see it clearly.

The container does not have to be perfect to be purposeful.
You do not have to have chosen it to be in a real relationship with it.

Before you move on from this reflection, I invite you to pause and sit with one or all of these questions:
• What is this place already offering me that I have not yet been willing to receive?
• What does it ask of me, and what might it be building in me, that I have not yet acknowledged?
• If I do have the freedom to choose: what do I actually need my next place to be and do for me?

There are no right answers, just honest ones.

You may find that where you already are has more to offer than you have allowed yourself to receive.
You may find that it is time to ask for something different.
Wherever it may lead you.

And, Switzerland, thank you for twenty-five years of being exactly what I needed.

With love,

Astuti

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The Right Wrong Turn
You succeeded. This is exactly why it is so hard.

You did it. A career, a business, a reputation, a life that others wish they had.
It was success. You worked for it. You earned it. You were good at it.

Painfully, now you find it harder and harder to be in it, that numbing yourself is necessary to get through the day.

A voice within you asks: “How did this happen? Have I invested myself, my time, my energy and my life incorrectly?”

It’s heavy to face, let alone move through. I know.

The truth is this is not randomly happening.
It started at some point after you decided to do “it”; you made another decision: a silent decision, unspoken to anyone but yourself – to be more truthful, more authentic. To live a different kind of life.

You whispered it: “I want something that is more me”. “I want to live where I can breathe deeper”. “I want to feel more alive in my life”. “I want to live where I can always hear myself”.

You did not think anyone heard.
Well, your soul heard you. Life heard you.
Many things started to happen – holding up a mirror to the version of you that built all of this.

No, life does not happen to you. It happens for you, even when it comes with painful endings and completions.

Yes, you are grieving. You are meant to.

We have language for failure. We have language for loss. There is an entire industry built around recovering from what went wrong.

However, this – the grief that comes with success – is unique.

This is the grief of consciously leaving something you actually built.
The grief of choosing to walk away from decades of becoming someone and choosing to become another version of you.
The grief of having all that you thought you wanted and still feeling a hollow ache in your heart.

The most disorienting part is that you can’t even fully explain it to the people around you.
They see what you have. They see the title, the stability, the trajectory. They don’t understand why you’re in pain. Some of them would trade places with you in a heartbeat.

So, you go silent. You carry it alone. For years… until eventually a question forms that you’re almost too afraid to finish: “Who am I… if I let all of this go?”

The battle between the voice and the noise.

This question is the beginning and it will not go away.

At some point you can hear it: a soft, loving, persistent, inconvenient inner voice that knows exactly what is true about you and what needs to happen next.
You’ve heard it. You know you’ve heard it. It lets you sense the answers, envision the path, feel the next step forward.

On the other side, the regret is loud. The grief is thick.
Another voice – older, harder, more familiar- rises up: “Look how wrong you’ve been before. Look how long it took you to see clearly. What makes you think you can trust yourself now?”

Overwhelmed by this battle, you stall. The stalling takes many forms – new projects, new ventures, new hobbies, new training, anything to feel like movement without actually moving.

Here is what actually happens.
Time keeps moving and creates more urgency. Urgency feeds more fear. Fear creates more paralysis. Paralysis costs more time. This is the loop and once it starts, it spirals. Every time.

Forming alongside it is a new regret. Not only about the past, but about right now. About today. About another week, another month, another year of knowing and not moving.

It is perhaps the cruelest part of all of this.

The self-judgment to hold in compassion.

I’ve been there. So have the people I’ve walked alongside this past decade.

When they allow themselves to really feel the depth of these grief and regret, tears always come.
Carrying accumulated grief and regret is heavy not only for the mind, but for every part of you, especially your body.

With it, all kinds of self-judgment rises up: “Am I ungrateful? Am I greedy? Am I being irresponsible? Am I being selfish? Am I even allowed to want what I truly want?”

What I hear underneath all of those questions is really this: “Am I allowed and safe to change the foundation of my life? Am I going to hurt others if I do?”

The honest answer to both is a resounding yes.
Yes, you are allowed and safe to change the foundation of your life. This is why free will is part of the human design.

Yes, change more often than not hurts. However, stalling and resisting change when it is due hurts more.
Why? Because self-betrayal hurts the most. That is why.

Here is the liberating truth: what hurts, when attended to and cared for adequately, heals.

Here is what I want to say about the choices that brought you here.

Every decision you made – the career you committed to, the path you stayed on, the version of yourself you showed up as for decades, the relationships you kept throughout – those were not wrong turns.

They were necessary.

You needed to build it to know what building felt like.
You needed to succeed at it to stop wondering if you could.
You needed to live it fully, seriously, with everything you had to finally, undeniably know: This is not it.

This embodied knowing has a price and you have already paid it.
The wrong turn was always the right one because there was no other way to arrive at the clarity you now carry.
The wrong turn was always the right one when you understood what it invited you to let go and reclaim, and do it.

Here comes the hardest part.

Not the pivot. Not the practicalities. Not even the fear of starting over.

The hardest part is forgiving yourself.
For the years you placed everything and everyone above your own truth.
For the self you left behind while you were busy building a life for everyone else.

For the years you stayed because leaving felt impossible.
For the fact that you have fewer days ahead than you have already lived.
For the identity you held onto because you didn’t yet know who you were without it.
For the voice you heard and didn’t yet trust enough to follow.
For the life you built so well but that was never quite fully yours.

Forgiveness here is not about deciding it was all fine. It wasn’t always fine.

Forgiveness is the moment you stop prosecuting yourself for being human for not knowing sooner, for needing the long way around, for being someone who had to live it fully before they could leave it honestly.

It is the radical decision to stop letting the past have jurisdiction over who you are becoming.
This is the only thing that will finally quiet the loop.
When the regret softens, even slightly, you can hear your inner voice more clearly.
You start to notice what your soul is guiding you toward and what life is showing you. The path becomes more visible. The stalling stops.
You take the next step, one at a time, at your own pace.

From my heart to yours…

Take a breath and let these land.

There is no wrong turn. All of them were the right “wrong” turns.
You were not wasting time.
You were giving everything you had to what you knew then.

You could not have known sooner. You knew exactly when you were ready to know.

The grief you feel is not a sign you went wrong. It is proof you lived it fully.

What you built was intentional. It brought you exactly here. It prepared you for the life that is truthfully aligned with who you are becoming. You have graduated.

The inner voice you keep second-guessing has never once lied to you.

You are not too late. You are precisely on time for a life that is more you than the one you planned.

The path forward does not require you to have it all figured out. It only requires you to trust the next step… and take it.

You are not starting over. You are starting from everything you now know.
Remember that.

If this written transmission speaks to you, I have another gift for you.

There Is No Wrong Turn is a free 17-minute audio transmission to support you – an energetic field to accompany you in meeting the grief, shame, and regret in your body, and to reconnect you to the truth about your path and your timing.

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Save the link and listen when you are ready. Come back to it when the loop starts again.

I am there when you are ready.

With love,

Astuti

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The noise is not the problem.

Losing your inner voice in it is.

The most exhausting thing is not listening to the noise around us.
Instead, it is not being able to hear our inner voice through it.

Something I keep noticing in the people I work with and what I also experienced in the past: we are not struggling because we lack intelligence, capability, or drive.

We are struggling because we have heard so much noise for so long, we no longer know what is ours.

Our inner voice is the only one that knows what is most aligned for us.
It cannot be hacked by noise, distorted by pressure, or borrowed from someone else’s playbook.

The problem is not that it disappeared.
Over time, due to the pace, the pressure, the endless stream of opinions and expectations, our inner voice became almost impossible to hear let alone trust.

We then do what feels logical: we ask others. We research more. We wait for certainty that never comes.
We make decisions and immediately doubt them.
We lie awake not because we don’t know what to do, but because we have stopped trusting ourselves.

This is not a productivity nor a strategy problem.
It is a disconnection problem from the one inner guide that has always known the way.

When that connection erodes, no amount of external clarity will fill it.

The good news is it can be restored.
Your inner voice has not gone anywhere. It is partly or fully temporarily muted or heavily filtered.

Here is my recommendation.
Next time you are about to ask someone else…pause. Ask yourself: “What is the worst thing that can happen if I hear and trust my inner voice?”.

When you answer it honestly, you will notice that what you are afraid of is not what is in front of you. It is a past pain that is still ruling you now.
Realising it is disrupting its loop and the debilitating rule loses its grip.

This single question is a starting point.
I created The Reunion to take you further, to where your decisions are finally yours, the second-guessing stops, and the noise no longer runs you.

If you have questions about the programme or whether it is the right fit for where you are right now, I warmly invite you to set up a time to book a free Clarity Call with me. 

I am here when you are ready.

With love,

Astuti

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“May the remembrance within you bloom in perfect time”

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