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Turning grief and the loss sense of self into my wholesome self

Astuti’s introduction:

Angie has lived, worked, and integrated herself (and supported her family in doing the same) in many spaces and places around the world that offer her contrasting experiences.

The life journey that she chooses brings about accumulated grief due to a sense of loss of self, relationships and dreams due to the experiences, as well as powerful and profound growth that essentially brings her home to her wholesome self.

 

Relocation is never just physical relocation.

Physical relocation (be it a place of living or a place to work) is the tip of the deeper consciousness transformation. When we realize this, we can get much more out of it.

 

I supported Angie’s transformation journey after she relocated from Kenya to the UK in 2022.

I hosted a light and deep conversation about her transformation that you can access through the links below.

 

Watch the snippet of the reflection here:

 

Watch the full reflection here:

 

Listen to Angie’s full reflection on Spotify here:

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The Kitchen Conflict

 

 

 

 

My husband and I used to have a fight every time we had guests over for dinner. I wanted things done in a certain way and would get annoyed at him if he decided to do it differently.

It could be he cut the vegetables differently from how I wanted them cut, or he put the wrong plates out. It got to the point where he didn’t want to help in the kitchen when we had guests over or generally to be in the kitchen together, as that was a source of conflict over many years.

 

Recently, I had my cousin over for lunch, and I made a salad that is usually served only for Chinese New Year.

In the past, I would run around the shops making sure I had the exact ingredients for the dish and stress myself out preparing it.

This time, I noticed myself being much more relaxed about how it looked and what went into it. My husband also helped out in the kitchen, and it was a pleasant experience for both of us. There were no disagreements; he asked me what to do and how he could help.

 

What changed?

I realised that the conflict we had was because I had a lot of judgments and beliefs about how things should be, being in control and perfect, gender beliefs, and I was quite territorial about the kitchen. Choosing to work on them and let them go has meant that I’m more easygoing in the kitchen.

Things don’t have to be perfect or look or be a certain way. If it turns out a bit different, that’s ok too. This easing in my attitude has resulted in a nicer, calmer atmosphere in the kitchen between us.

 

Is there something in your life that is a source of conflict? Instead of pointing the finger, maybe it’s time to look at how you’re contributing to it.

– Julie

 

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The “Love Wins!”- Angie’s journey in turning grief and loss of sense of self into wholesome self.

 

 

 

Life is happening for you and not to you.

This can’t be more true for Angie Garcia Forner’s “Love Wins!” story, my newest podcast episode.

 

This episode is Angie’s homecoming story to her wholesome self, after living her life in many physical locations and organizational and social cultures in many places in Europe and Africa over decades.

 

Angie has lived, worked, and integrated herself (and supported her family in doing the same) in many spaces and places that offer her contrasting experiences.

 

The life journey that she chooses brings about accumulated grief due to a sense of loss of self, relationships and dreams due to the experiences, as well as powerful and profound growth that essentially brings her home to her wholesome self.

 

Relocation is never just physical relocation.

This is what I personally experience, and Angie shares the same.

Physical relocation (be it a place of living or a place to work) is the tip of the deeper consciousness transformation. When we realize this, we can get much more out of it.

 

Join us in this deep yet light and thorough reflection on YouTube or Spotify.

Just like how I feel to have the chance to see the beauty of the Swiss mountains every day, I feel grateful to have the opportunity to witness such a sacred, beautiful journey, such as Angie’s, often. It never gets old.

 

I am always touched and inspired by this. I hope you will, too.

Enjoy 💖🙏

With love,

Astuti

 

Click here for a free discovery call with me: https://astuti-martosudirdjo.youcanbook.me/

Go here to find out more about my self-paced online programs: https://embodiment.upliftmylife.today/

 

Copyrights, etc.: Music used in this episode: “On My Way” by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com). Licensed under Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 License

 

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Success vs Fulfilment – how it is different.

 

 

All individuals I support to date are successful in their own rights, yet many of them need support to feel fulfilled.

 

Many word combinations are used to describe this desire; among others are content, satisfied, enough, happy, complete, full, whole, excited, alive, passionate, liberated, uplifted, worthy, and gratifying.

 

I fully empathise with them and respect them for being honest and proactive about this.

I was oblivious to the difference until I experienced burnout in 2008. Through the rising journey from it, I learnt that the two are fundamentally different.

 

Feeling fulfilled is different than being successful.

Success happens when what you achieve aligns with your goals.

Fulfilment comes from how aligned your identity is with your soul (authentic self).

 

Success can happen even when your identity is in dissonance with your soul (authentic self).

In contrast, it is impossible to stay fulfilled when you are in dissonance with your soul. The good news is when you are fulfilled, you are also successful.

Take this ☝️in, please.

 

This happens because when your identity is aligned with your soul, your desires and goals also become aligned. Your life becomes aligned, grounded, centred, whole, enough and secure.

This is when your goals are aligned with your destiny – the ultimate soul experiences and destination. It brings out a sense of completeness, ease, purposefulness, and liberation, regardless of how unpredictable and challenging life can be.

 

No, your identity is not automatically fully aligned with your soul.

Aligning the two requires your consistent and continuous choice, inner work and commitment.

Your identity is “artificial” because it is formed by labels, judgments and beliefs of others and systems who raise and influence you as you grow up.

Your identity may also be formed in reaction to a wound or unhealed trauma (an event that made you believe that you were not enough, weak, powerless, etc.).

Your soul is the core energy /essence of your existence, and it holds the qualities that are uniquely yours. It is the true you. This is what emanates to the world through your body and life.

Being successful and fulfilled are two fundamentally different journeys.

Make your choice.

 

 

With love 💖

Astuti

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Easy does it!

 

 

As I thought about how I’d roll differently in 2025, “Easy does it” resonated so loudly in my mind that it became one of my mantras for the year!

 

“Easy does it” means I will consciously choose the most enjoyable ways (instead of the most intense, fast, challenging, etc) to experience what I wish.

 

I want to experience life and grow differently this year. Joy and pleasure are the top two experiences I prioritize.

 

This is a big deal for me, bigger than I can imagine. Yet, I am committed to it and keen to see what unfolds consequently.

 

I wrote down a few things I’d like to do accordingly and made my way through the list.

One of them is to have guest writers in my newsletter.

 

I am fortunate to have wonderful, curious, and deep-thinking minds around me. These are individuals with whom I can spend hours deeply conversing to expand and deepen my consciousness. Julie Grauel is one of these wonderful people.

 

I’d like her to share her perspective and reflection with you, and I’m happy that she accepted my invitation. Thank you, Julie 🙏💖

 

Today is her first of many.

Enjoy!!
With love,

Astuti

 

 

 

Hi everyone,

 

This is my first time contributing to Astuti’s newsletter. I’m honoured to have the privilege and would like to thank Astuti for the opportunity to do so.

I saw a fantastic clip today on Instagram (click here to watch the clip).

 

It was of a family selling food from their food stand somewhere in Indonesia, and they were doing brisk business.

 

The catch is – it was in the middle of a flood.

The clip shows people walking calmly along in waist high water up to this food stand. The water seemed quite calm, it didn’t appear to be rising or look life threatening. People were composed and smiling and chatting as they bought their food. It looked like a normal day out.

 

I love this video because it shows the attitude that one can take in times of adversity.

 

I think many people, myself included, would be upset about the damage to our goods and property. It is devastating if you lose your home or things precious to you.

 

Yet, you see people smiling despite the circumstances surrounding them and grateful they can buy food.

There is this calm acceptance of the situation that they are in and focusing on the present.

 

The other thing I loved is how the family focused on what was within their control. This video is an inspiring example of how to accept that the only thing we can control is how we choose to respond.

 

These people couldn’t control when the flood water goes down, but they could still cook and continue their business, so they did that rather than what most of us would do which is worry or get angry about things we can’t do anything about.

 

When faced with a challenging situation what do you focus on?

 

Do you put your attention on what you can do or do you get caught up in your emotions or fears?

 

If it’s the latter, maybe you need to ask yourself if they are real or imagined. If you’re still stuck then maybe set up a call with Astuti!

-Julie

 

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The Authentic Wealth conversation: Soulful sexuality to unlock authentic wealth

 

 

The Authentic Wealth conversation:

Sacred liberation – unlocking authentic wealth through soulful sexuality

with Dian Handayani

 

 

 

Halo!

Kali ini, saya ingin mengundang semua (yang bisa berbahasa Indonesia!) untuk bergabung di percakapan saya (dalam dua Bahasa – Bahasa Indonesia dan Inggris) dengan Dian Handayani, seorang sex therapist and coach dalam episode podcast terbaru saya yang berjudul “Sacred liberation – unlocking authentic wealth through soulful sexuality” 💖

(Menyimak di Spotify melalui link ini)

Dalam episode ini, saya dan Dian membahas tentang  peran “Sexual Self” kita sebagai kunci dan pintu penting dalam mewujudkan kehidupan yang dilimpahi kekayaan hakiki dan otentik.

 

Simak keseruan diskusi kami dimana Dian berbagi pengalamannya dan menguak hal – hal yang sering kita anggap tabu dan penuh dengan kesalahpahaman tentang seksualitas, sensualitas dan “Sexual Self”.

 

Kami membahas bagaimana proses pembentukan “Sexual Self” kita, apa saja yang bisa mempengaruhinya (termasuk juga trauma dari nenek moyang kita) dan dampak dari Kesehatan “Sexual Self” kita terhadap kualitas hidup kita.  Dian juga memberikan tips untuk memperbaiki hubungan kita dengan “Sexual Self” kita.

 

Jangan lupa untuk berbagi episode podcast ini kepada siapa saja yang menurut kamu memerlukan informasi ini ya!

Terima kasih 💖

 

I love you and leave you be 😉💖🙏

Astuti

 

Useful resources:

Sexual health for Muslims: https://www.instagram.com/sexualhealthformuslims

Erotism in Islam: https://www.instagram.com/habeeb_akande

Five Erotic blueprints: https://missjaiya.com/

WHO’s definition of sexual health: https://www.who.int/health-topics/sexual-health#tab=tab_2

 

 

To get in touch with Dian Handayani:

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/dian-handayani/

IG: https://www.instagram.com/therapywithnambani/

Website: https://www.nambani.com/

 

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My journey to embody my authenticity and heal a rare illness, Cushing’s Disease

Astuti’s introduction:

Adiyoga (Yoga) came recommended to me for support immediately after he had brain surgery in 2021, which was done in an attempt to heal from Cushing’s Disease. This rare disease occurs when a pituitary tumour causes the body to make too much cortisol.

 

In Yoga’s case, his body produced cortisol 14 times over the normal level. This has severe consequences for his health and well-being. He received this diagnosis in December 2020.

 

I hosted a deep conversation (you can watch or listen through the links below) with Yoga to reflect on his healing journey since then, which moves him from intense desperation, anger and fear into embodying his authentic self. It is his story of reclaiming his holistic health and well-being. It is a story of how love wins and continues to win in his life.

 

Watch the snippet of his reflection here.

 

Watch Yoga’s full story here:

 

Listen to Yoga’s full story on Spotify here.

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The “Love Wins!”- Yoga’s journey to embody authenticity and heal a rare illness Cushing’s Disease

 

 

 

Illness is one of the most challenging growth opportunities.

 

We don’t always see illness as an opportunity to grow.

Many see illness as a manifestation of punishment or mistakes.

Indeed, this brings up the deep pain of the “There is something gravely wrong with me” belief.

Illness is one of the most impactful triggers for the soul’s growth.

 

I grew up witnessing my mother dealing with chronic illness and how this impacted her and the rest of our family. I don’t have many memories of my mother being healthy. Our lives were wrapped around her illness. This impactful experience shaped me and taught me what it truly means to heal, be whole, love, and be free regardless of the perceived limitations of our physical reality.

Being one of my mother’s children set me up well to be a support for others who wanted my support for their physical problems. Throughout the period when I supported Yoga, I often thought of my mother and how much our shared life was an intense teaching period for me, one that no school can ever do for me. May you rest in health, well-being, love and peace, Mama 🙏

This is why I particularly love bringing this “Love Wins” story.

Adiyoga (Yoga) came to me for support immediately after he had brain surgery in 2021, which was done in an attempt to heal from Cushing’s Disease. This rare disease occurs when a pituitary tumour causes the body to make too much cortisol. In Yoga’s case, his body produced cortisol 14 times over the normal level. This has severe consequences for his health and well-being. He received this diagnosis in December 2020.

 

Yoga’s “Love Wins” story shares his journey from intense desperation, anger and fear into embodying his authentic self. It is his story of reclaiming his holistic health and well-being. It is a story of how love wins and continues to win in his life.

 

As a facilitator for Yoga’s healing and transformation journey, I learnt so much about deep love, the higher love we humans are made of and the need to come home to our soul to reclaim our holistic well-being.

 

I feel honoured to be a part of Yoga’s journey and to have him come on the channel to speak about his healing journey, what he learnt throughout, including the deeper root causes of the disease, and how this has changed him and his life.

 

May his story touch your soul and inspire you to come back to your soul, too.

 

Watch Yoga’s full story here. Listen to Spotify here.

I hope to see you all there.

 

Next week, I will continue with the sneak peek of Module 8 of The Authentic Wealth Embodiment Program.

You are welcome to write me a comment, ask a question, or set a discovery call with me: https://astuti-martosudirdjo.youcanbook.me/

Lastly, help me spread love. Share this information with everyone you care about and can benefit from this. Thank you.

 

I love you and leave you be 😉💖🙏

Astuti

 

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I choose to trust the Universe

 

 

In the quietness of last evening, my heart whispers, “Let go… let go of what you still hold on to right now. Let go of the belief that you can only believe when you see what you want to exist in your life. It is the other way around”.

 

This is big!!

 

I recognize this belief as I sometimes say, “I believe it when I see it”.

I can see how this does not serve my life anymore as I have chosen to live in flow with Source and the Universe, being one with it.

 

We must understand how the Universe works when we choose to do this.

One key lesson I learnt is that anything I desire or feel inspired to have or experience consciously already exists in my higher timeline.

Manifestation starts at the energetic level before it becomes tangible.

The truth in this process is that my “Higher Self” has “it” that my conscious self can sense it and hence decide to have or experience “it” by saying with conviction, “This is what I desire”. This decision allows “it” to move towards me and enter my reality.

 

To keep the belief of “I believe it when I see it” is like living with an unconscious cancelling or self-sabotaging program against the Universe’s flow towards us.

It’s like having a forwarding address for our mail so that none of our mail, packages and orders reach us.

 

“I believe it when I see it” is a belief that is fear-based, and keeping it feeds the doubt and fear that keep us separated from the Universe.

 

For me personally, the replacement of this belief is “I trust I am the embodied Source energy. What I desire already exists and is coming to me in a tangible form.”

 

What about you? What do you choose to believe?

 

I love you and leave you be 😉💖🙏

Astuti

 

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Changes are inevitable. This will support you!

 

 

Changes are inevitable.

Whether they are voluntary or not, going through them may feel many things but easy, safe or empowering.

 

If you feel like 2025 is THE year for you, deep down, you know that changes are on the horizon. The more you surrender to this, the process can get “easier”.

 

The UPLIFT program may offer excellent support when you embrace the changes but feel less than confident about the journey. You may currently experience (and possibly feel stuck in) shock, anger, fear, confusion, loss, grief, hurt, overwhelmed, stuck, hopeless, defeated, lack of control, victimised, or disempowered.

 

No, going through changes can feel differently. You can move forward feeling hopeful, in-charge, courageous, grounded, focused, centred, present, supported, safe, empowered, calm, joyful, peaceful, resilient, trusting, optimistic, energetic, grateful, and inspired.

 

As you go through change/transition, The UPLIFT journey catalyses you to TRUST:

  1. Yourself.
  2. Your inspiration that makes your heart sing.
  3. That the change you undergo leads you to an elevated state of being.
  4. That you can do this transition well.

 

Tya, one of my clients, shares her experience with it here.

 

Here are the sneak peeks of the UPLIFT program:

 

Introduction to UPLIFT: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7209072707848523776

 

Module 1 – Opening Up Your Heart: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7211609187137503233

 

Module 2 – Discovering & Connecting with Your Authentic Self: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7213413544090836992

 

Module 3 – Claiming Your Authentic Life: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7214870637226459137

 

Module 4 – Embracing Love, Gentleness and Rest: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7215957887334936576

 

Module 5 – Trusting Divine Guidance, Plan and Timing: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7218494543942295552

 

Module 6 – Embracing Abundance and Gratitude: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7221031273362788352

 

Module 7 – Staying Focused and Moving Forward With Wise Decisions: https://www.linkedin.com/feed/update/urn:li:activity:7223567930217697280

 

Go here to see all these in a playlist on YouTube: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLMEpyS6fk4wWCi0X139EFG9YsHdDuveT3&si=zbYFzPnKFJTQfz3U

 

I hope to see you in the program; click here.

 

Send me a message or set an appointment with me: https://astuti-martosudirdjo.youcanbook.me/

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I love you and leave you be 😉💖🙏

Astuti

 

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