When Choosing Truth Disrupts Your Life

When Choosing Truth Disrupts Your Life

A transmission to help you see clearly and make peace with what is falling away

 
It is the beginning of the year.
Something in you may have said: “It’s time”.
Time to live differently. Time to live more truthfully.

Or  maybe…. you said yes to this a while ago and now you’re standing in the middle of everything that choice set in motion.

For some of you, the shift has just begun.
For some of you, it’s already well underway.
Yet, the question underneath is the same:
What is happening to my life… and why now?

Your job falls through.
A relationship loosens.
The loss of interests in what you were once passionate about.
You could not wait to finish the day because you could not relate anymore to what you had or what you were doing.
You moved through your day not feeling much at all… rather numb that you kept on looking for distractions from it.
The ground you thought was stable suddenly starts to move unexpectedly.

It is disorienting.
It is uncomfortable.
It might even feel like life is dismantling itself around you.

Before you name it as chaos, pause with me for a moment and ask yourself this:
Did you ever say to yourself…
“There has to be more than this”
“I want to come home to who I really am”
“I want to stop performing and start living in a way that feels truthful to me”

Maybe you wrote it down.
Maybe you put it on a vision board.
Maybe you said it once, and forgot.

Here is the truth…
Your soul didn’t forget.
The Universe didn’t forget either.

The changes, the “disruption”, the “shocking events”… these are not randomly happening.
This is a set of events and openings related to your “Yes” is moving in real time.

Everything may feel upside down.
Like you’re floating between two realities: the old one collapsing behind you, the new one not quite built yet.

You’re in “the middle”.
It’s confusing. It’s disorienting.
It might even feel like you’ve been abandoned by the very thing you trusted and feel safe and secure in.

Let me offer you something clearly, lovingly, truthfully:
This doesn’t mean you’re doing it wrong.
It means your choice is working.

When you say yes to your homecoming to what feels truthful for you, you’re not just saying: “I want to feel more like myself”
You’re saying to the Universe:
“Clear out everything that isn’t true”
“Remove what no longer fits”
“Let what’s false fall even if I once depended on it”

Then, the Universe responds, as it always does.
You don’t have to repeat your choice twice when you choose from the depth of your being.

The Universe always listens and responds, more promptly than you think.
It sets in motions many things that may disorient, confuse or scare you to help you make room for what you asked.
It certainly is not doing this to test you, to punish you or to reject your choice.

Here is what I experienced and witnessed to date:
You cannot build an authentic or truthful and fulfilling life on top of a foundation that was built to survive distortion.

The old or current life must loosen.
Why?
Because your truth can no longer hold what your fear agreed to.
The old or current life must loosen because it is not longer working for your truth.

Yes, sometimes your job disappears.
Sometimes money slows.
Sometimes the labels and identity that made you feel safe, secure and worthy no longer make sense.
That’s the beginning of truth having space to breathe.

Here’s what always happens but many do not know how to process:
When things fall away, emotions will rise.
It always will because you are human.
Fear. Shame. Guilt. Panic.
The urge to go back to something…anything… just to feel stable again.

That’s normal.

However, this is where your deeper work begins.
Don’t run from the feelings.
Don’t shame yourself for them.

Sit with them.
Feel them.
Breathe with them.
Ask them:

• What belief is this emotion attached to?
• What story is keeping this fear alive?
• What part of me is still trying to hold it all together?
• And… is that still true?

This is the real work and one that will move you through the transition with much more ease.
It does not mean easy, but you have more ease walking through it.

In this deep work you are invited to, you’re not just feeling emotions.
You are meeting the programming behind them.
You are facing in the eyes what was running your life behind the scenes – the parts of you that thought you had to earn safety; perform for love; hustle for worth.

This inner work is not about fixing yourself.
This is about liberating yourself.

All of these will happen. You can expect them to happen for sure.
The good news is they happen moment by moment…as you soften into presence.
As you listen to your body.
As you deactivate the old loops.
As you begin to trust that you are allowed to feel safe now without all the armor, masks and others that blocked you from feeling that you live a truthful and aligned life.

You may still live in the same world, yes.
However, you are no longer surviving it from the outside in.
You are  beginning to live it from the inside out.
You are connecting and responding to the outer world differently because your inner world is different now.

The real path of transformation is a journey of ascending and descending.
You ascend to connect to your soul essence, and then you descent to live in your body as that essence, interacting and responding to the world as it is.

It is a journey where grief is welcome.
Where confusion is part of the map.
Where nervous system regulation is both spiritual and physical practice.
Where building a new life starts with what is grounding you into your own body.

And no, this “middle confusing and disorienting space” won’t last forever.
As you root deeper into truth and your own body, the new foundation will rise.
Your soul’s work will find you.
Your voice will get clearer.

The path will open. Not all at once, but enough for each next step.
The path is a spiral. It is not linear.
The path will take you on ascension and descension.
The path will connect you to your soul frequency and integrate you into your body.
High frequency without embodiment ( fully anchored into your body and your life) is not a true transformation.
This is the sacred undoing  and the holy re-anchoring.

If you can let yourself see that  and you can accept what is falling away as something that is already complete,  then you are no longer being undone.
Instead, you are being made whole.

Until then:
Breathe.
Grieve.
Rest.
Feel.
Don’t rush.
Don’t go numb.
Whatever you do, don’t go back to what you know is not your truth anymore just because the process feels slow and uncomfortable.

You’re not alone.
You’re not late.
You’re not lost.

You’re in the middle of something sacred.
It means you’ve already begun.

This is how the soul builds a life that lasts.
This is how you come home.
It is more than enough.

From My Heart To Yours…

If you’re in the middle space right now…
if things are falling away and you’re not sure what’s next…
I want you to know:
You are not lost.
You are in a sacred transition.
I see the strength it takes from you to stay present in it.

You don’t have to figure everything out today.
You don’t have to rush to rebuild.
You are allowed to be exactly where you are and still be becoming.

May this written transmission help you see your experience more clearly and begin to make peace with what’s shifting,
not because it’s easy, but because it’s yours.

I’ve also recorded an audio transmission to walk with you through this space.
It’s not here to push you forward or tell you how to feel.
It’s here support you to hold, to steady,  to regulate and to remind your system what safety feels like when everything familiar is falling away.

When you’re ready, find a quiet space, lie down or sit in a way that feels grounded, and press play.

On Spotify: When Your Yes To Truth Begins To Undo Your Current Life Audio Transmission
On my online Sanctuary:When Your Yes To Truth Begins To Undo Your Current Life Audio Transmission

Let both of these transmissions meet you where you are.

You don’t have to do this alone.

With love,

Astuti

💛💜

“May the remembrance within you bloom in perfect time”

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