From Anger to Sovereignty

From Anger to Sovereignty

A living transmission to reclaim the power you once hid to survive

 

My invitation as you receive this transmission:
Take a deep breath. Feel it.
Let your heart be present. Let your body breathe this in.
Let it meet you wherever you are.

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Most of us have misunderstood anger.

We were taught that feeling anger means losing control. To be unsafe. To be wrong. To be a bad person.

As a child, I often got angry.
The fire I carry now lived in me then – full, alive, and often misunderstood.

What no one understood was this:
I wasn’t angry because I was bad.
I was angry because I sensed dissonance all around me.

I could feel when something didn’t match:

When words said one thing, but energy said another.
When love came with silence, pressure, conditions or expectations that I wasn’t always allowed to question.

I didn’t have the language for it yet… but my body knew something wasn’t right.

When I expressed that fire, it wasn’t welcomed.
My parents didn’t know what to do with it.
They couldn’t meet me there because they didn’t know how to hold what they themselves had long buried. Even when they loved me.

So over time, I buried it too.
I told myself: “You’re not allowed to be angry at the people you love. Or anyone who gives you love”.
That meant my parents. My grandparents. My teachers. Especially God.
And so, most of the time… I turned the anger inward.
It didn’t just live in my thoughts. It lived in my body.
As a child, it showed up as high blood pressure – a pressure no one could see, but I was carrying all the time.
It softened only years later, after I moved to Switzerland at 27.

The truth is anger always exists, and it is a part of human experience.

It needs to be felt and move through us.

I just didn’t know how to flow with it until I went deeper into my transformation journey. The dragon in me woke up a couple of times, and it was an intense experience.

The beauty of my “inner dragon” awakening is the realisation that I had: “What if anger is not breaking me? What if it’s what brings me back whole?”.

This written transmission was born out of this beautiful and powerful realisation, one that I regard as the truth about something that has been so distorted and misunderstood.

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Anger as I know it now

This is how I honour anger today.

Anger is a strength. It is not a matter of immaturity, dysfunction, or even an emotion to transcend.

Anger is a guardian. It is a signal that our essence has been compromised.

It is the part of us that refuses to go numb when our “yes” is stolen or our “no” is ignored or dismissed.

Anger is memory. It remembers where the violation occurred, in your body, in your bloodline, in your system.
The anger that rises in you now is not just yours; it is the generational scream of every woman, every man, every child, every soul who was taught that being “good” and “belonging” meant being quiet, keeping your head down, and swallowing your emotions.

However, I also experienced and witnessed that not all anger is sacred.
I witnessed that the anger that explodes from unprocessed pain and trauma still causes harm.

The truth is the anger that rises after the silence, after the grief, after the death of pretending is a true anger.

It exists not to burn down the world, but to burn down the lie.

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The forgotten blueprint of anger

Anger was never designed to destroy indiscriminately.
It was designed to interrupt distortion.

Where grief opens the space, anger enters to protect it.
To guard what is sacred.
To disrupt what is false.
To realign what has strayed from truth.

In the original blueprint, anger had a purifying function:
It was what rose the moment something sovereign was about to be crossed – the part of you that stood rooted, unshakable, and said with full clarity: Not here. Not now. Not ever.

It was never meant to be personal.
It was never meant to be weaponised.
It was meant to be the immune response of a conscious being living in alignment with truth.

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The two faces of anger

Before we go further, we need to name something clearly.

Not all anger is the same in nature.
There is true anger and there is distorted anger.

True anger rises from clarity.
It honors boundaries. It restores truth.

Distorted anger rises from unprocessed pain.
It reacts, explodes, and often repeats harm.

This distinction matters because when we don’t know what kind of anger is moving through us, we risk misusing our fire.

We either suppress it entirely, or we let it leak, loop, and lash out.

To truly reclaim anger as a force of sovereignty, we must learn to recognise what is true and what is distortion.

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Distorted Anger vs. True Anger

Distorted Anger is:

• Reactive, erratic, explosive
• Rooted in powerlessness
• Fueled by shame and unprocessed trauma
• Easily provoked, easily exploited
• Used by systems to keep people fighting each other
• Loud, confused, looping

True Anger is:

• Clear, calm, grounded
• Rooted in sovereignty
• Anchored in truth, not pain
• Seeks realignment, not punishment
• Cannot be manipulated
• Ends patterns, purifies field
• Feared by systems because it cannot be used

True anger is directive, sovereign, piercing, the opposite of chaos.
It doesn’t shout. It sees.

This is why naming the difference matters.
Distorted anger drains you. True anger restores you.
One keeps you reactive, the other returns you to sovereignty.

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Anger as a system disruptor

Contrary to the deep programming in the human psyche, anger is not what breaks society. Distortion is.
Suppressed anger is the very reason distortion survives.

How come? Because true anger dismantles what false peace protects.

Every system that demands obedience – e.g. religious, political, educational, even spiritual – requires your anger to be disabled.

Why?

Because when true anger is awake:

• People-pleasing collapses
• Silence becomes unbearable
• False safety is refused
• Systems built on compliance begin to tremble

You cannot be controlled or manipulated once you remember your fire.

 

This is why wars continue.

Because righteous anger – anger born from truth, not pain – was never allowed to complete its sacred cycle:

Violation → Awareness → Anger → Clarity → Realignment → Peace

This is how anger is meant to move:
It rises when a boundary is crossed.
It brings awareness to the violation.
It fuels the clarity to act, and restores alignment – within and without.
This is anger as a purifier, not a destroyer.

The fact of the matter is most people never reach that clarity.
It’s because they’ve been conditioned to suppress anger at the very first spark.

Instead, they become trapped in a different cycle –  a loop that keeps pain alive:

Violation → Suppression → Confusion → Projection → Explosion → Shame → Suppression again

This is what happens when anger is buried instead of felt.

It doesn’t disappear. It distorts.
It warps the nervous system, clouds the mind, and twists your truth until you no longer trust it.
Then it seeps through as resentment, passive aggression, blame, or explosive reactions that don’t match the moment.
It becomes harder to discern what’s real because the distortion lives beneath everything you say and do.

This is why the world doesn’t fear rage. It feeds on it.
Rage can be used, provoked, televised, politicised, and monetised.

True anger?

It cannot be manipulated.
True anger does not fight for validation.
It cuts the cord and walks out clean.
From the system.
From the spell.
From the lie.
And that… that is what every distorted structure fears the most.

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Anger, Power, and Sovereignty

You cannot access your true power without reclaiming your anger.

It’s because anger is the threshold guardian of power.
It tells you: “You matter. Your truth matters. What you allow matters”.

Suppressed anger turns power into:

• Compliance
• Pretending
• Posturing
• Pleasing
• Projection
• Protection

You start to look powerful but feel hollow.
You begin to call submission “peace”.
And soon, you forget what clean and true power even feels like.

When anger is restored, you reclaim your spine, your boundaries, your choice.

Anger informs the boundary.
Power enforces the boundary.
Sovereignty lives within the boundary.

True anger makes your life non-negotiable to your own soul.

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Anger in relationships and community

In trauma-bonded, manipulative, or codependent dynamics, we are often taught that love means:

• Silence to keep the peace
• Sacrifice to be worthy
• Merging instead of meeting in sovereignty
• Forgiving without accountability

This is not love.
It is survival posing as intimacy.

True anger brings us back to clarity:

“If I must disappear to be loved, this is not love”.
“If I must betray myself to belong, this is not belonging”.

True anger restores:

• Truth-telling without cruelty
• Boundaries without guilt
• Presence without pretending, projecting, pleasing
• Union without merging
• Separation without shame

In healthy community, anger is not exiled.
It is welcomed as sacred signal.
It brings people back from illusion to integrity.
It exposes where we’ve drifted.

True anger does not sever connection – it restores it.
It opens the door to connection that is no longer based on distortion, fear, or self-abandonment.

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The Return

Before you continue, take a breath.

Affirm your decision to receive.
Let this next part meet you in your body. Read it slowly and breathe each line into your bones.

“You do not need to master or control your anger.
You do not need to tame it, silence it, or make it palatable.

You need only remember:
It was never here to hurt you.
It was here to protect what is sovereign inside you.

Your anger is not a flaw.
It is a signal.
A memory.
A wake-up call.

It rises when something has gone missing:
Truth.
Integrity.
Self.

And, anger stays until you return to them.

So let anger move through you now in recognition and clarity.
Let it light your spine.
Let it clear the fog.
Let it whisper what the world tried to make you forget:

You are not too much.
There is nothing wrong with you.
You are remembering what was always yours”.

 

Let this remembering be enough for now.

When you’re ready to feel your anger in the body, this 19-minute audio transmission is here to support you: https://embodiment.upliftmylife.today/fromangertosovereignty

It guides you to meet your anger safely, clearly, and without shame so it can move, speak, and free the life force it’s been holding.

This is a gift. You may receive it freely.
If you feel moved to offer something in return, you’re welcome to make a donation in the amount that feels true for you.

This transmission is offered with love. It’s here for you, whenever your heart is ready to meet it 💛💜

With love,

Astuti

P.s. Please share this with someone in your circles who would breathe deeper remembering themselves within this perspective. Thank you!

 

“May the remembrance within you bloom in perfect time.”

 

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