There is no wrong turns
There is no wrong turns:
Trusting your path – even when it feels uncertain
My invitation as you start reading this:
Simply allow yourself to read slowly and let what resonates find its place inside you.
You may not need to understand everything right away. Just trust that what is most helpful for you will meet you as you read.
For most of my life, I’ve lived by trust.
Not blind trust.
But trust that moved even when I couldn’t fully see.
The kind of trust that says:
“If my soul leads me here, then here is where I am meant to be.”
Since I was a child, I didn’t fear making decisions.
I said yes when others hesitated.
I let go when others clung tighter.
I walked forward when the map was incomplete.
Even as a teenager, I felt this pull inside me:
At 17, I left home for the United States on an exchange program.
In 1997, I ran for National President of AIESEC in Indonesia, travelled around places in Indonesia, living between Bandung and Jakarta.
In 1998, I stepped into the AIESEC International team and moved to the Netherlands.
Later in 2001, I applied for a job in Human Resources for a global Bank – even though I studied Finance and Accounting – and moved to Switzerland for it, trusting a quiet knowing that this was my next home.
Years later, I left my corporate career entirely to follow my soul’s work.
Did I consciously plan all these? No.
Did I dream about it? I dreamt of my student exchange year in the US and did all that I could to get it. The rest felt like an unfolding of the rest of the path.
I followed the inner pulls, ones that only I could feel and trust.
These choices didn’t always make sense to others.
They didn’t come with guarantees. They were unusual for a young woman like me, at a time.
But each pull was clear. Not loud, but certain.
Trust doesn’t always look the same
For some, trust means daring to leave the familiar.
For others, it means staying when everything tempts them to run.
For some, it’s speaking what was never allowed.
For others, it’s choosing silence where reaction would be easier.
For many of you reading this, your trust may have looked like:
- Saying yes to a relationship that stretched your heart
- Saying no to opportunities others thought you should take
- Making decisions without all the answers, simply because something inside whispered “Go.”
Trust takes many forms.
And as we keep living, it keeps inviting us into new expressions.
Even for those anchored in trust, edges still rise
Even for those of us who carry trust in devotion, there are moments when trust feels tender:
- When outcomes don’t match our expectations.
- When what we built dissolves.
- When timelines stretch far beyond what we imagined.
- When love unfolds in ways that break open every layer of us.
It is not always the choice itself that tests us.
It is what comes after.
When you do not trust your unfolding, it often shows up like this:
- Feeling anxious when outcomes don’t match your timelines
- Questioning whether you’ve wasted time or missed your chance
- Comparing your path to others and wondering if you’re falling behind
- Feeling frustrated that clarity hasn’t arrived fast enough
- Doubting whether the pauses, delays, or detours have any purpose
- Holding shame or regret for choices that led to pain or discomfort
- Struggling to forgive yourself for not “seeing it sooner”
- Feeling stuck in cycles of “what if” and “if only”
- Trying to overanalyze every decision to prevent future mistakes
- Mistaking stillness as failure, and rest as weakness
At the root of the struggle to trust, there often lives something deeper:
- The fear of being abandoned if you trust and things fall apart.
- The fear of being disappointed again.
- The fear of losing time you cannot get back.
- The fear of not being able to repair what breaks.
- The fear of being humiliated for trusting something others warned you against.
- The fear of not receiving what you longed for even after you trusted fully.
And underneath all of them:
The fear of being betrayed – by life, by others, by your own self.
This is why trust can feel risky.
This is why many try to control, analyze, or delay decisions.
Because trusting requires surrendering to something larger than certainty.
It requires allowing life to move, even when you do not understand its choreography yet.
Trust keeps evolving as we grow
For some of you, trust may be about taking courageous steps forward.
For others, trust may be about staying open to receive.
In my own path, where trust in choosing has long been embodied, life is now inviting me into an even more tender edge: Not trusting what I do, but trusting what I allow.
What rises now is a deeper trust:
- The trust to be provided for.
- The trust to be held without having to carry it all.
- The trust to allow myself to receive without guarding.
- The trust to open fully, even when parts of me still whisper, “Is it safe to be this soft?”
This is the sacred edge of my own unfolding now.
The place where my holy feminine expands – not in independence, but in full, sovereign receptivity.
Trust is not static.
It keeps inviting us into new chambers.
Each turn brings a new initiation.
There is no wrong turns
What feels like a delay may have been a protection.
What looked like loss may have been an initiation.
What seemed like failure may have been an exact refinement you needed to carry your work, your love, your truth, and your sovereignty with integrity.
Every turn I have walked – even the ones I once struggled to understand – has now revealed its medicine:
Seasons of emptiness taught me how to open to receive, without fear or striving.
Unexpected unfoldings in relationships taught me the depth of sovereignty that no shortcut could have given.
Years of walking in profound stillness and solitude taught me to hold my own field, anchored in truth rather than performance.
The dismantling of old identities made space for my essence to breathe fully.
If you ask me today whether I would have wished a different path, the answer is no.
Why? Because this is not about getting somewhere faster.
It is about becoming someone deeper.
Where I stand now, I live what once I only hoped for:
I live as a living prayer, no longer asking to be given, but allowing what is already mine to arrive.
Every breath aligned with truth is a silent dialogue with Source.
I allow, instead of strive.
I embody, instead of plead.
I remember, instead of chase.
Provision, love, and sovereignty flow not because I force them, but because I live as one with them.
This is where Divine Law breathes.
And I embody.
Learning to trust our path also asks us to forgive ourselves
Not because we have failed, but because many of us have carried quiet judgments – the thoughts that we should have been further along, made different choices, or understood sooner.
Self-forgiveness is the act of releasing those judgments, so trust can fully root.
Self-forgiveness is not about excusing every choice.
It is about dissolving the illusion that you were ever meant to arrive faster, easier, cleaner.
It is about honoring your timing.
It is about releasing the quiet violence of “I should have known.”
It is about trusting that every turn has brought you closer to the full embodiment of who you are here to be.
The truth is, you have not missed your life.
You are in it. Even when you have no map for it.
This is your path. Every turn, even the ones you never planned, belongs.
Let yourself exhale.
Let yourself soften.
Let yourself trust.
There is no wrong turns.
Reflective invitations
- Where have you doubted your own unfolding?
- What fears rise when life moves differently than you expected?
- In what ways has your trust already grown deeper than it once was?
- Where might life be inviting you into a softer trust – one that allows receiving without control?
- If you knew that no turn was ever wrong, what would soften inside you today?
What is a transmission?
A transmission, such as this one, is more than an article.
This transmission offers you an energetic breathing space to reconnect with what feels right for you even if you couldn’t explain it before.
It’s certainly not about being told what to believe or do.
It’s about allowing space for clarity to rise inside you so you can feel more steady in your decisions, more peaceful with where you are, and more confident in your next steps.
As you receive it, you don’t need to analyze or concentrate.
You simply read, breathe, and let what speaks to you land gently.
In simple words:
Meditation helps you practice calming.
A transmission helps you feel clearer and steadier inside.
A deeper layer awaits
In a few days, I will release a companion video transmission that holds a deeper layer of this invitation.
As you read this written transmission, you may already feel something inside you soften – a sense of recognition, of relief, of truth landing gently.
The video transmission brings this into your body more fully.
Hearing my voice, feeling the rhythm, allowing your breath and body to receive – this helps what your mind understands to settle deeper into your being.
The written helps you see.
The video helps you feel and embody.
Both are here for you, when you are ready to receive them.
This transmission lives here for you, when you are ready to receive it.
With love 💛💜
Astuti
P.s. Please share this with someone in your circles who would breathe deeper remembering themselves within this perspective. Thank you!
“May you trust your path, knowing it has always been yours.”
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