The Aftermath: Clearing and Rebuilding

Congratulations, you made it through August! 🥳

I am sure you would agree with me…August was intense.
For many of us, it was genuinely hard.

The intensity came from many places. The sky was one of them.

There were two eclipses in August, and a lot of slow, heavy movement overhead. This kind of sky tends to press on whatever we have been avoiding, and bring it up to be met.

That is what I felt in myself, and what I saw in the people I work with.
August reached into what you had kept suppressed or set aside. It asked you to make a decision about it. Then it asked you to follow through.

However August arrived for you, it left a mark. It may feel like a storm. For some it felt like the ground itself moved. For others, it was a wave that swept everything in its path. For some it was fire. The shape was not the same for everyone.

I strongly believe that what moves in us and what moves in the earth are not separate. Mother Earth is going through her own deep process right now, and I feel it in my body as she does.

This summer, especially August, for me came as inner fire.
It came with a more frequent physical heat. Hot flashes, if you will. It felt like one that women who go through perimenopause would experience.
Yet, I felt it was more than that. I believe it was also an inner fire burning out what no longer serves me that was stored deeply in my physical body.

I moved through the summer here in Zurich slowly, and on purpose.
The external heatwave was part of it too.
I let the heat, inner and outer, slow me down instead of pushing against it. In that slowness, I did deep inner work. I cleared old programming in myself, the automatic patterns that still run underneath my choices.

The focus was the re-programming of old consciousness patterns and templates that work against living as a sovereign being, and creating a sovereign life and love partnerships.

Sovereignty here means living from my own authority, and belonging to myself first. From that place, relationships become spacious and interdependent, rather than a way to complete myself through someone else.
It was intense inner work. It was also integration, the slower work of letting a change settle into how I actually live. I will reflect more on this in my future reflections and transmissions.

Whatever your own August brought up, one thing is the same for all of us.
Every storm, every quake, every wave, every fire has an aftermath. A time after, when the thing that hit you has passed, and you are left standing in what it changed.

This is where we are now. September is the aftermath.
An aftermath is not only rest, though you will need rest. I am still resting a lot myself.
It is also the beginning of real and tangible work.
You look at what was moved. You clear what was broken. You rebuild. Whatever you decided during the intensity of August, this is the period you begin to live it, in tangible ways, consistently and on purpose.

If you are still standing, notice something. You did not only get through August.
You let the intense energy move through you, and you faced what it brought to the surface.
Underneath that, there are decisions for you to take, whether or not you have put words to them yet.
These decisions are the ground you will build on.

When you make a decision that is truly right for you, grief often comes with it. This surprises people. We expect a right decision to bring only relief.
The grief is real. A true decision asks you to let go of something: a version of yourself; a relationship as it used to be; a sense of safety you had built your life around.
You can know a choice is right and still mourn what it costs you.

If grief is moving in you right now, you don’t have to move through it alone. I recorded an audio transmission for exactly this:

On Spotify: Grieving the life you had to outgrow

On my Online Sanctuary: Grieving the life you had to outgrow

An audio transmission is an energetic field to support a real shift in you as you listen. This one speaks directly to the grief that comes with making a right decision. Let it be a companion for these tender days. Listen as often as you feel called to.

Now, about the rebuilding.
There are two ways to clear and rebuild a life. Most of us learned only one. We force it. We push our bodies to keep going. We strain our minds to control every detail. We call it being responsible, and we reach the end of the rebuild more depleted than the month left us.

There is another way: from ease.
Ease is not the same as easy.
It does not mean a life without problems.
It means a life with space in it, one you feel alive inside.
From this place, you still do the work. You still clear and you still rebuild. You simply stop using force to do it.

For most of us, ease is not something we believe is truly possible.
Many of us were taught the opposite, that a strained life, even struggle itself, is the mark of real success. So even when we long for ease, an older programming pulls us back toward strain. I call this survival programming. It is the set of automatic patterns that once kept you safe by keeping you on guard, working hard, and putting yourself last.

If August left you wanting another way to live, one that keeps all of its meaning and purpose, then this is the programming that has to change.
This is what my book, The Return to Ease, is for.

I wrote it out of eighteen years of my own clearing and rebuilding. I walked this road with many support but without having a comprehensive view of what was actually happening. Intentionally, I took each step, then made sense of what happened, so I could explain it to myself.

I put what I learned into this book to accompany you. When you understand what is going on, the journey may feel less scary.
We have different stories. The underlying patterns, and the way out of them, are the same.

The Return to Ease is not a book that only adds more knowledge to what you already have. It also gives you deep, guided work to reprogram the subconscious and unconscious patterns that were wired for survival.

It is a living transmission. As with the audio, this means the writing holds a steady frequency and works on you as you move through it, not only informing your mind.
It is made to reactivate what you already know in your soul and body – a remembrance – and to clear what blocks or distorts that knowing.

Strain is part of every life. It is a part of human experience, I don’t deny that. However, strain was never meant to be your baseline, the steady inner state you live from most of the time. Ease is, instead.

You can receive The Return to Ease in two places.
If you would like the printable PDF workbook, you can find it in my online sanctuary. When you purchase it there, you also receive access to the virtual community space, where you can bring your questions to me as you move through the journey.
https://embodiment.upliftmylife.today/thereturntoease

If you prefer to read on Kindle, here is the link.
https://books2read.com/returntoease
The Kindle version does not include the community space, and it cannot be printed.

From my heart to yours….

You can rebuild your life differently. I know, because I did.
The Return to Ease was born from my own long walk out of the strained, survival way of living, and into ease as my baseline.
Our stories may differ. The principles are the same.

Remember, you don’t have to do this alone.

With love,

Astuti

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